0xea (Xea)

Hyia!, Im Xea!; autistic girly creature, born early 2000s in Berlin(still here).

Verified xea creature; most of this page is a json file.

Come chat me up! <3, just don't be a meanie.

References

• Email: 0xea@paranoici.org
• Github: https://github.com/Im-0xea
• Discord: im_0xea
• Reddit: https://www.reddit.com/user/im_0xea

Special Interests

• chemistry and pharmacology
• low level programming and reverse engineering

Complications

Route of Administration Ranklist

Substance Matrix

Substance Ranklists

Stimulants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Lisdexamphetamine		favorite psychoactive substance for productivity; prodrug of my favorite stimulant
Dextroamphetamine		quite stimulating; clean euphoria; minimal side effects
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinoisohexanophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; quite entactogenic; heavy cardiovascular side effects; moderate duration insufflated
4-Methylpentedrone		moderately entactogenic; intense short acting euphoria; quite potent; stimulation lasting 2-3 hours intravenous
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinohexiophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; mildly entactogenic; moderate duration insufflated; vaporized has distinctive disgusting mushroom smell
Orthophedrone		lighly entactogenic; increadibly stimulating; extreamly short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive; high dosing requirements, although more potent than expected; memory disruption
Metaphedrone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; memory disruption; corrosive
5-Dihydrobenzofuranpyrovalerone		moderate euphoria on high doses; uncomfortable intravenously
Dextromethamphetamine		quite stimulating; intense but short euphoria; long halflife; strong xerostomia(dry mouth)
Amphetamine		somewhat stimulating; clean euphoria; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very euphoric and practical via intravenous injection
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic; occasional comfortable full body feeling; hearing alteration or suppression
N-Ethyl-nor-pentedrone		intense short acting euphoria; quite tweaky
Mephedrone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
3-Methylethcathinone		moderate stimulation and euphoria; moderate duration; instant gag reflex induced upon injection
Brephedrone		nothing to note
Flophedrone		very short euphoria; heavy body heating; quite unpleasant
Dimethocaine		strong numbing effect both in veins and mouth; mild euphoria; pleasant vaporized
Methylphenidate		minimal euphoria and stimulation; interesting when intravenously injected; causes anxiety and strong physical side effects
Ethylphenidate		mild stimulation; passed out on it on both occasions
Caffeine		light plesant stimulation; discomfort at higher doses; toxicity has nearly taken my life
Nicotine		light stimulation; causes agitation and headaches; helps take the edge of hard stimulants
Modafinil		effects not notable
Pseudoephedrine		effective dosing not reached
Salbutamol		respiratory enhancement; minimal to no stimulation; cardiovascular side effects
N-Ethyl-nor-heptedrone		dull euphoria; extreme body heating
α-Phenyl-α-pyrrolidinoacetophenone		consistently causes significant anxiety and a rather intoxication and dissociating stimulation
4-Methylbuphedrone		barely active; more sedating than stimulating
3-Fluoroethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered
4-Fluoromethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered; softer curve
Bupropion		paradoxical pharmacology; caused intense distress

Entactogens

Compound	Structure	Notes
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine		my favorite psychoactive substance; helped fix several friendships; allowed me to reprocess some traumatic events; will turn anybody into a cuddle-machine; do not intravenously inject, will drain serotonin immediately, gave me serotonin syndrome
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic; occasional comfortable full body feeling; hearing alteration or suppression
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinoisohexanophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; quite entactogenic; heavy cardiovascular side effects; moderate duration insufflated
Mephedrone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
Metaphedrone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; memory disruption; corrosive
Orthophedrone		lighly entactogenic; increadibly stimulating; extreamly short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive; high dosing requirements, although more potent than expected; memory disruption

Dissociatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
2-Fluorodeschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but more potent; mid length duration(~3 hours); mind melting dissociative effects
Eticyclidone		10-20mg smooth long acting(~5 hours) effects; difficult self-asssesment; mania inducing yet functional; help deal with sensory overload, social interactions and fine motor ability
Methoxpropamine		smooth effects; difficult self-asssesment; functional
Ketamine		unnerving if injected rapidly; body distortion; perception in snap frames; amnesia; time distortion; followed by suicidal thoughts; interesting mind manifestation with positive reinforcement
Tolicyclidine		relaxing yet mania inducing at 10mg
Deschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but slighly more rough
Dextromethorphan		effective dosing not reached; might have worsened previous psychosis

Psychedelics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Dimethyltryptamine		~15mg vaporized produced very light effects but made me leave with newfound meaning and motivation; ~20mg vaporized produced feelings of shooting through space while completely clear in my head, very clean beautiful visuals for 3 minutes; ~25mg vaporized produced feelings of being torn out of my body and lost in space for 3 minutes; ~30mg vaporized made my subconcious start talking "please help me, I want to leave this place(refering to my place in life)"
Lysergic acid diethylamide		150mcg made me more concious of how dissociation influences my perception of reality, broke communication down to a fluid simplified interface, vulnerable animalistic perception of organic living beings, enabled understanding repressed part of myself
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-bromophenethylamine		caused a significant and a horrifying experience; reduces passing of time; overlaying yet intense visuals; interesting tactile sensations; "psychedelic phenethylamine go weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^w^"; "if this is a mind manifesting drug, than my mind is both love and a nighmare swarm of angry spinning rainbows"; intense 2.5 hour experience when intravenously injected

Hormone medications

Compound	Structure	Notes
Estradiol undecylate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; produces stable levels with no crashes when injected monthly
Estradiol enantate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; minor crashes when injected weekly; discomfort when injected every 4 days
Estradiol cypionate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; crashes when injected weekly
Estradiol valerate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; crashes when injected weekly
Estradiol		life saving hormone; caused figure changes, breast growth, body hair reduction, skin smoothing and emotional enhancements
Dutasteride		significantly reduced hairloss; no side effects; very long halflife
Cyproterone acetate		helpful when estradiol levels drop below monotherapy levels; no side effects noticed so far
Beclometasone dipropionate		might slightly have helped respiratory issues
Melatonin		barely effective sleeping aid; potencially improves quality of sleep
Finasteride		coincided significant suicidal thoughts; very short halflife; stopped treatment after a month

Opioids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Mitragynine		quite relaxing yet helpful for working; reduces minor pain; very helpful when crashing from dopaminergic stimulants; encourages sexuality
6-Monoacetylmorphine		obtained by letting Diacetylmorphine sit in a low pH solution for several weeks; quite potent; relaxing to the point of inducing sleep; warm; minor pain reduction; helps deal with siginificant emotional pain; weird dream like states which feel fully concious; encourages sexuality
Diacetylmorphine		prodrug to 6-Monoacetylmorphine; not very classy
Loperamide		nothing to note
Oxycodone		strong apathy and sadness; feelings of body melting; when injected minor euphoria followed by nausea and intense sweating and warmth with only minor pain suppression

Antipsychotics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing / anxiety inducing to use; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose in the matter of 3-7 hours; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy
Amisulpride		messed me up at low dosage; kept me safe at a full dosage; quite pleasant probably due to opioid / GHB effects
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy
Aripiprazole		way too long half-life; anxiety and discomfort; increased heart rate; teeth grinding

Sedatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Bromazepam		relaxing; not very sedating
Lorazepam		relaxing; not very sedating; strong memory formation supression
Alprazolam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed; quite potent
Diazepam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed
Temgicoluril		helps in distress
Pregabalin		reduces some baseline anxiety; doesn't prevent breakthrough sensory overload
Zolpidem		effective sleeping aid; strange thoughts and dreams
Ethanol		reduces cognitive functioning; euphoric at nauseating doses; rather use this as a solvent
Baflofen		coincided severe nausea; no notable anxiety suppression at 200mg
Isopropanol		accidental exposure; pretty euphoric and encouraging grandious thinking; causes headaches; ~24 hour duration; rather use this as a solvent

Cannabinoids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Tetrahydrocannabinol		reduces cognitive functioning; slowed perception of time
Cannabidiol		causes mental dulling; CYP2D6 inhibition unconfirmed

Antihistamines

Compound	Structure	Notes
Cetirizine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Bilastine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Diphenhydramine		at 50mg pleasantly relaxing, reduced cognitive ability and agitation; seams too improve allergy symptoms
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing / anxiety inducing to use; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose in the matter of 3-7 hours; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy

Antidepressants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Fluoxetine		noted acute effects; long term no notable improvement in quality of life; slight potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Sertraline		seams to improve well being after MDMA use; notable potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight

Amino acids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Oxitriptan		seams to improve wellbeing after MDMA use
L-Theanine		light but pleasant effects
Omberacetam		seams mildly stimulating
Acetylcysteine		the taste of rotten eggs ruined my dextromethamphetamine tea
Pyridoxine		uncertain activity
N-Acetyl-L-tyrosine		uncertain activity; injected 500mg intravenous; corrosive
L-Tryptophan		uncertain activity
L-Tyrosine		uncertain activity
Gamma-Aminobutyric acid		not effects noted

Antiemetics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Domperidone		potencially mild nausea reduction
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy

Antihypertensives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Minoxidil		promotes hair regrowth; causes respiratory depression at 10-15mg oral administration

NSAIDs

Compound	Structure	Notes
Acetylsalicylic acid		reliefs minor headaches; causes useful blood thinning for stroke prevention
Ibuprofen		ineffective
Paracetamol		ineffective

Substance Notes

Compound	Structure	Routes	Notes
Salbutamol		respiratory enhancement; minimal to no stimulation; cardiovascular side effects	Inhaled
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-bromophenethylamine		caused a significant and a horrifying experience; reduces passing of time; overlaying yet intense visuals; interesting tactile sensations; "psychedelic phenethylamine go weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^w^"; "if this is a mind manifesting drug, than my mind is both love and a nighmare swarm of angry spinning rainbows"; intense 2.5 hour experience when intravenously injected	Oral, 💉
Amphetamine		somewhat stimulating; clean euphoria; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very euphoric and practical via intravenous injection	Oral, Insufflated, Intrarectal, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Intravenous, Inhaled, Vaporized, Sublingual	Freebase, Sulfate, Hydrochloride
Dextroamphetamine		quite stimulating; clean euphoria; minimal side effects	Oral, Intravenous	Sulfate
Dextromethamphetamine		quite stimulating; intense but short euphoria; long halflife; strong xerostomia(dry mouth)	Oral, Insufflated, Intrarectal, Subcutaneous, Intramuscular, Intravenous, Vaporized	Hydrochloride
3-Fluoroethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered	Intravenous	Hydrochloride
4-Fluoromethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered; softer curve	Intravenous	Hydrochloride
Pseudoephedrine		effective dosing not reached	Oral	Hydrochloride
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine		my favorite psychoactive substance; helped fix several friendships; allowed me to reprocess some traumatic events; will turn anybody into a cuddle-machine; do not intravenously inject, will drain serotonin immediately, gave me serotonin syndrome	Oral, Intravenous	Hydrochloride
Lisdexamphetamine		favorite psychoactive substance for productivity; prodrug of my favorite stimulant	Oral, Intravenous	dimesylate
Orthophedrone		lighly entactogenic; increadibly stimulating; extreamly short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive; high dosing requirements, although more potent than expected; memory disruption	Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal
Metaphedrone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; memory disruption; corrosive	Intravenous, Insufflated, Subcutaneous, Oral, Intrarectal, Vaporized
Brephedrone		nothing to note
Flophedrone		very short euphoria; heavy body heating; quite unpleasant
Bupropion		paradoxical pharmacology; caused intense distress
Mephedrone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
4-Methylbuphedrone		barely active; more sedating than stimulating
4-Methylpentedrone		moderately entactogenic; intense short acting euphoria; quite potent; stimulation lasting 2-3 hours intravenous
3-Methylethcathinone		moderate stimulation and euphoria; moderate duration; instant gag reflex induced upon injection		hydrochloride
N-Ethyl-nor-pentedrone		intense short acting euphoria; quite tweaky
N-Ethyl-nor-heptedrone		dull euphoria; extreme body heating
α-Phenyl-α-pyrrolidinoacetophenone		consistently causes significant anxiety and a rather intoxication and dissociating stimulation	Insufflated, Intravenous	hydrochloride
5-Dihydrobenzofuranpyrovalerone		moderate euphoria on high doses; uncomfortable intravenously	Insufflated, Intravenous	hydrochloride
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinoisohexanophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; quite entactogenic; heavy cardiovascular side effects; moderate duration insufflated	Insufflated, Intravenous	hydrochloride
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinohexiophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; mildly entactogenic; moderate duration insufflated; vaporized has distinctive disgusting mushroom smell	Insufflated, Intravenous, Inhaled	freebase, hydrochloride, citrate
Methylphenidate		minimal euphoria and stimulation; interesting when intravenously injected; causes anxiety and strong physical side effects	Oral, Intravenous
Ethylphenidate		mild stimulation; passed out on it on both occasions	Oral
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic; occasional comfortable full body feeling; hearing alteration or suppression	Intravenous
Dimethocaine		strong numbing effect both in veins and mouth; mild euphoria; pleasant vaporized	Intravenous, Vaporized	freebase, citrate
L-Tyrosine		uncertain activity	Oral
N-Acetyl-L-tyrosine		uncertain activity; injected 500mg intravenous; corrosive	Oral, Intravenous
Ibuprofen		ineffective	Oral
Acetylsalicylic acid		reliefs minor headaches; causes useful blood thinning for stroke prevention	Oral, Insufflated
Paracetamol		ineffective	Oral
Amisulpride		messed me up at low dosage; kept me safe at a full dosage; quite pleasant probably due to opioid / GHB effects	Oral
Dimethyltryptamine		~15mg vaporized produced very light effects but made me leave with newfound meaning and motivation; ~20mg vaporized produced feelings of shooting through space while completely clear in my head, very clean beautiful visuals for 3 minutes; ~25mg vaporized produced feelings of being torn out of my body and lost in space for 3 minutes; ~30mg vaporized made my subconcious start talking "please help me, I want to leave this place(refering to my place in life)"	Inhaled
Melatonin		barely effective sleeping aid; potencially improves quality of sleep	Oral
L-Tryptophan		uncertain activity	Oral
Oxitriptan		seams to improve wellbeing after MDMA use	Oral
Lysergic acid diethylamide		150mcg made me more concious of how dissociation influences my perception of reality, broke communication down to a fluid simplified interface, vulnerable animalistic perception of organic living beings, enabled understanding repressed part of myself	Oral
Diphenhydramine		at 50mg pleasantly relaxing, reduced cognitive ability and agitation; seams too improve allergy symptoms	Oral
Modafinil		effects not notable	Oral
Cetirizine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms	Oral
Fluoxetine		noted acute effects; long term no notable improvement in quality of life; slight potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition	Oral
Loperamide		nothing to note	Oral
Estradiol		life saving hormone; caused figure changes, breast growth, body hair reduction, skin smoothing and emotional enhancements	Transdermal
Estradiol valerate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; crashes when injected weekly	Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
Estradiol cypionate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; crashes when injected weekly	Subcutaneous
Estradiol enantate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; minor crashes when injected weekly; discomfort when injected every 4 days	Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
Estradiol undecylate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; produces stable levels with no crashes when injected monthly	Subcutaneous, Intramuscular
Finasteride		coincided significant suicidal thoughts; very short halflife; stopped treatment after a month	Oral
Dutasteride		significantly reduced hairloss; no side effects; very long halflife	Oral
Cyproterone acetate		helpful when estradiol levels drop below monotherapy levels; no side effects noticed so far	Oral
Beclometasone dipropionate		might slightly have helped respiratory issues	Inhaled
Bromazepam		relaxing; not very sedating	Oral
Diazepam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed	Oral, Intravenous
Lorazepam		relaxing; not very sedating; strong memory formation supression	Oral
Alprazolam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed; quite potent	Oral, Intravenous
Mitragynine		quite relaxing yet helpful for working; reduces minor pain; very helpful when crashing from dopaminergic stimulants; encourages sexuality	Oral
Dextromethorphan		effective dosing not reached; might have worsened previous psychosis	Oral
Oxycodone		strong apathy and sadness; feelings of body melting; when injected minor euphoria followed by nausea and intense sweating and warmth with only minor pain suppression	Oral, Intravenous
6-Monoacetylmorphine		obtained by letting Diacetylmorphine sit in a low pH solution for several weeks; quite potent; relaxing to the point of inducing sleep; warm; minor pain reduction; helps deal with siginificant emotional pain; weird dream like states which feel fully concious; encourages sexuality	Intravenous	citrate
Diacetylmorphine		prodrug to 6-Monoacetylmorphine; not very classy	Inhaled, Intravenous	citrate
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy	Oral
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight	Oral
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing / anxiety inducing to use; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose in the matter of 3-7 hours; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy	Oral
Omberacetam		seams mildly stimulating	Oral
Nicotine		light stimulation; causes agitation and headaches; helps take the edge of hard stimulants	Inhaled, Transdermal
Minoxidil		promotes hair regrowth; causes respiratory depression at 10-15mg oral administration	Transdermal, Oral
Deschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but slighly more rough	Insufflated
Eticyclidone		10-20mg smooth long acting(~5 hours) effects; difficult self-asssesment; mania inducing yet functional; help deal with sensory overload, social interactions and fine motor ability	Insufflated
Methoxpropamine		smooth effects; difficult self-asssesment; functional	Insufflated
2-Fluorodeschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but more potent; mid length duration(~3 hours); mind melting dissociative effects	Insufflated
Ketamine		unnerving if injected rapidly; body distortion; perception in snap frames; amnesia; time distortion; followed by suicidal thoughts; interesting mind manifestation with positive reinforcement	Insufflated, Intravenous
Tolicyclidine		relaxing yet mania inducing at 10mg	Oral, Insufflated
Sertraline		seams to improve well being after MDMA use; notable potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition	Oral
Aripiprazole		way too long half-life; anxiety and discomfort; increased heart rate; teeth grinding	Oral
Domperidone		potencially mild nausea reduction	Oral
Bilastine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms	Oral
Zolpidem		effective sleeping aid; strange thoughts and dreams	Oral
Cannabidiol		causes mental dulling; CYP2D6 inhibition unconfirmed	Oral, Inhaled
Tetrahydrocannabinol		reduces cognitive functioning; slowed perception of time	Inhaled
Pregabalin		reduces some baseline anxiety; doesn't prevent breakthrough sensory overload	Oral
Baflofen		coincided severe nausea; no notable anxiety suppression at 200mg	Oral
Gamma-Aminobutyric acid		not effects noted	Oral
L-Theanine		light but pleasant effects	Oral
Acetylcysteine		the taste of rotten eggs ruined my dextromethamphetamine tea	Oral
Caffeine		light plesant stimulation; discomfort at higher doses; toxicity has nearly taken my life	Oral, Insufflated, Intravenous
Temgicoluril		helps in distress	Oral
Pyridoxine		uncertain activity	Oral, Intravenous
Phenol			Oral
Isopropanol		accidental exposure; pretty euphoric and encouraging grandious thinking; causes headaches; ~24 hour duration; rather use this as a solvent	Inhaled
Ethanol		reduces cognitive functioning; euphoric at nauseating doses; rather use this as a solvent	Oral, Inhaled, Intravenous