0xea (Xea)

Hyia!, Im Xea!; autistic girly creature, born early 2000s in Berlin(still here).

Verified xea creature; most of this page is a json file.

Come chat me up! <3, just don't be a meanie.

References

• Email: 0xea@paranoici.org
• Github: https://github.com/Im-0xea

Special Interests

• chemistry and pharmacology
• low level programming and reverse engineering

Complications

Route of Administration Ranklist

Substance Matrix

Substance Ranklists

Stimulants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Lisdexamphetamine		favorite psychoactive substance for productivity; prodrug of my favorite stimulant
Dextroamphetamine		quite stimulating; clean euphoria; minimal side effects
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinoisohexanophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; quite entactogenic; heavy cardiovascular side effects; moderate duration insufflated
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinohexiophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; mildly entactogenic; moderate duration insufflated; vaporized has distinctive disgusting mushroom smell
Orthophedrone		lighly entactogenic; increadibly stimulating; extreamly short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive; high dosing requirements, although more potent than expected; memory disruption
Metaphedrone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; memory disruption; corrosive
4-Methylpentedrone		lighly entactogenic; intense short acting euphoria; quite potent; quite tweaky
5-Dihydrobenzofuranpyrovalerone		moderate euphoria on high doses; uncomfortable intravenously
Dextromethamphetamine		quite stimulating; intense but short euphoria; long halflife; strong xerostomia(dry mouth)
Amphetamine		somewhat stimulating; clean euphoria; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very euphoric and practical via intravenous injection
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic
N-Ethyl-Nor-Pentedrone		intense short acting euphoria; quite tweaky
Mephedrone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
Flophedrone		very short euphoria; heavy body heating; quite unpleasant
Dimethocaine		strong numbing effect both in veins and mouth; mild euphoria; pleasent vaporized
Ethylphenidate		mild stimulation; passed out on it on both occasions
Methylphenidate		minimal euphoria and stimulation; interesting when intravenously injected; causes anxiety and strong physical side effects
Caffeine		light plesant stimulation; discomfort at higher doses; toxicity has nearly taken my life
Nicotine		light stimulation; causes agitation and headaches; helps take the edge of hard stimulants
Modafinil		effects not notable
Pseudoephedrine		effective dosing not reached
Salbutamol		respiratory enhancement; minimal to no stimulation; cardiovascular side effects
N-Ethyl-Nor-Heptedrone		dull euphoria; extreme body heating
Alpha-Phenyl-Alpha-Pyrrolidinoacetophenone
4-Methylbuphedrone		barely active; more sedating than stimulating
3-Fluoroethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered
4-Fluoromethamphetamine		barely active even when intravenously administered; softer curve
Bupropion		paradoxical pharmacology; caused intense distress

Entactogens

Compound	Structure	Notes
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine		my favorite psychoactive substance; helped fix several friendships; allowed me to reprocess some traumatic events; will turn anybody into a cuddle-machine; do not intravenously inject, will drain serotonin immediately, gave me serotonin syndrome
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic
3,4-Methylenedioxypyrrolidinoisohexanophenone		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; quite entactogenic; heavy cardiovascular side effects; moderate duration insufflated
Mephedrone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
Metaphedrone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; memory disruption; corrosive
Orthophedrone		lighly entactogenic; increadibly stimulating; extreamly short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive; high dosing requirements, although more potent than expected; memory disruption

Dissociatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
2-Fluorodeschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but more potent; mid length duration(~3 hours); mind melting dissociative effects
Eticyclidone		10-20mg smooth long acting(~5 hours) effects; difficult self-asssesment; mania inducing yet functional; help deal with sensory overload, social interactions and fine motor ability
Ketamine		unnerving if injected rapidly; body distortion; perception in snap frames; amnesia; time distortion; followed by suicidal thoughts; interesting mind manifestation with positive reinforcement
Tolicyclidine		relaxing yet mania inducing at 10mg
Deschloroketamine		similar to ketamine but slighly more rough
Dextromethorphan		effective dosing not reached; might have worsened previous psychosis

Psychedelics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Dimethyltryptamine		~15mg vaporized produced very light effects but made me leave with newfound meaning and motivation; ~20mg vaporized produced feelings of shooting through space while completely clear in my head, very clean beautiful visuals for 3 minutes; ~25mg vaporized produced feelings of being torn out of my body and lost in space for 3 minutes; ~30mg vaporized made my subconcious start talking "please help me, I want to leave this place(refering to my place in life)"
Lysergic acid diethylamide		150mcg made me more concious of how dissociation influences my perception of reality, broke communication down to a fluid simplified interface, vulnerable animalistic perception of organic living beings, enabled understanding repressed part of myself
2,5-Dimethoxy-4-bromophenethylamine

Hormone medications

Compound	Structure	Notes
Estradiol Undecylate
Estradiol Enantate
Estradiol Cypionate
Estradiol Valerate
Estradiol		life saving hormone; caused figure changes, breast growth, body hair reduction, skin smoothing and minor emotional enhancements
Dutasteride		significantly reduced hairloss; no side effects; very long halflife
Cyproterone acetate		helpful when estradiol levels drop below monotherapy levels; no side effects noticed so far
Beclometasone dipropionate		might slightly have helped respiratory issues
Melatonin		barely effective sleeping aid; potencially improves quality of sleep
Finasteride		coincided significant suicidal thoughts; very short halflife; stopped treatment after a month

Opioids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Mitragynine		quite relaxing yet helpful for working; reduces minor pain; very helpful when crashing from dopaminergic stimulants; encourages sexuality
6-Monoacetylmorphine		obtained by letting Diacetylmorphine sit in a low pH solution for several weeks; quite potent; relaxing to the point of inducing sleep; warm; minor pain reduction; helps deal with siginificant emotional pain; weird dream like states which feel fully concious; encourages sexuality
Diacetylmorphine		prodrug to 6-Monoacetylmorphine; not very classy
Loperamide		nothing to note
Oxycodone		strong apathy and sadness; feelings of body melting; when injected minor euphoria followed by nausea and intense sweating and warmth with only minor pain suppression

Antipsychotics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing / anxiety inducing to use; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose in the matter of 3-7 hours; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy
Amisulpride		messed me up at low dosage; kept me safe at a full dosage; quite pleasant probably due to opioid / GHB effects
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy
Aripiprazole		way too long half-life; anxiety and discomfort; increased heart rate; teeth grinding

Sedatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Bromazepam		relaxing; not very sedating
Lorazepam		relaxing; not very sedating; strong memory formation supression
Alprazolam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed; quite potent
Diazepam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed
Temgicoluril		helps in distress
Pregabalin		reduces some baseline anxiety; doesn't prevent breakthrough sensory overload
Zolpidem		effective sleeping aid; strange thoughts and dreams
Ethanol		reduces cognitive functioning; euphoric at nauseating doses; rather use this as a solvent
Baflofen		coincided severe nausea; no notable anxiety suppression at 200mg
Isopropanol		accidental exposure; pretty euphoric and encouraging grandious thinking; causes headaches; ~24 hour duration; rather use this as a solvent

Cannabinoids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Tetrahydrocannabinol		reduces cognitive functioning; slowed perception of time
Cannabidiol		causes mental dulling; CYP2D6 inhibition unconfirmed

Antihistamines

Compound	Structure	Notes
Cetirizine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Bilastine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Diphenhydramine		at 50mg pleasantly relaxing, reduced cognitive ability and agitation; seams too improve allergy symptoms
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing / anxiety inducing to use; seams to relieve psychosis at proper dose in the matter of 3-7 hours; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy

Antidepressants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Fluoxetine		noted acute effects; long term no notable improvement in quality of life; slight potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Sertraline		seams to improve well being after MDMA use; notable potenciation of lisdexamphetamine through CYP2D6 inhibition
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight

Amino acids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Oxitriptan
L-Theanine		light but pleasant effects
Omberacetam		seams mildly stimulating
Acetylcysteine		the taste of rotten eggs ruined my dextromethamphetamine tea
Pyridoxine		uncertain activity
N-Acetyl-L-Tyrosine
L-Tryptophan		uncertain activity
L-Tyrosine		uncertain activity

Antiemetics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Domperidone		potencially mild nausea reduction
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy

Antihypertensives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Minoxidil		promotes hair regrowth; causes respiratory depression at 10-15mg oral administration

NSAIDs

Compound	Structure	Notes
Acetylsalicylic acid		reliefs minor headaches; causes useful blood thinning for stroke prevention
Ibuprofen		ineffective
Paracetamol		ineffective